back in kerala - loving it

I reached kerala 3 days back. So far its been pretty busy.

Met my Grandmas.. both are quite alrite except for the old age part.

My cousin got married yesterday and I feel so happy for him. He is too great a guy and unfortunately God put quite a lot of troubles all around him. anyways hope the future holds great days ahead!

the wedding wasnt the usual super extravagant stuff that i see, it was simpler and in certain areas there was that element of sincerity which was heartwarming. Booze flowed all around and everyone had sheepish smiles and big grins on. well, whatever makes you happy ;).

Sad part for kids who have studied away from hometown or 'native place' is meeting relatives, 'close relatives'...and not knowing exactly who they are.

You put on your sincerest smile and speak to them, and then look around desperately for someone to come and help you out.

Nice, A has seen your misery and is coming towards you, A walks straight to you, smiles at 'unknown' and asks you "Da ninakku manasilaayille ?" Didnt you recognize (this person). You think deep inside.. well if i did, would i have made such a lost dog face that brought you here in the first place. but you continue the game "Manasilaaayi, pakshe krithyamaayi parayaan patunilla... kandu nalla parijayam umm..err...mmm" Ofcourse i know, but i cant place exactly (the person), have seen so many times.. umm..err..mmm

After the stage has passed when unknown makes sure how bad it feels that I didnt know him/her. This is usually the same stage when your face resembles a nice red tomato.. Unknown is now Known... greetings are exchanged.. and you move on..

Ahh great your ma is introducing you to unknown 2... Ma is doing A's part herself.. how sweet!

This game goes on till you are back home...

I hate it and feel real bad that i dont know so many wonderful people. I wish i knew them better. thats one side of the weddings part, you get to meet people you should be knowing!

wonder if this post makes much sense..

another silly post - the pursuit of happyness

What makes you happy?

• Watching your lil 9 month old nephew on the yahoo video window, hoping that he recognizes your voice.
• Cosying up in bed watching rain fall lightly outside, a nice book in hand, maybe a cup of warm coffee aswell.
• Knowing from your uncle back home, your grandma is waiting to see you.
• Doing something that you are sure would make your mom proud, and wait for her to hear about it from someone else, and then act like its no big deal (forget the amount of hardwork and planning).
• Watching Dad grinning after his 'n'th beer. :)
  
• Watching the guy you dislike goof up on something.... if its happening in public, all the more better.
• Checking your mail religiously to find that yes, that cute one has replied!!

Many things come to mind, many many things. I could think of a million things that make me happy, or atleast keep me not-sad. Its interesting that most of it revolves around 'other people'. Near and dear ones, or the opposite.
Isn't there any way that God expects people to be happy without another person coming into the picture?

weed? hmm...

the play begins

its been a long long time, observing from the sidelines.
watching the world pass, busy, scary, sweet.... a million thoughts darted through, here and there..
trying to channel them. trying to focus.
learning to face the world.

all that s gold, does not glitter..
all who wander, are not lost..
-- JRR Tolkein


happy new year